It feels both really good and bad when you fall in love. Cause love is there to make u fell good and when u fall its always going to hurt even if it is in love. I have the bitterest experience of my life and I am going to share it over here….

 

It was the winter of 1998 december, u know when we used to have meen pacahs ko chutti. I used to play cricket with my frens all the day long. There was a house near my house which had been sold a long time ago but new owners were not seen till then. That winter the owners came to live there along with there cute daughter shreya…since we were boys and that girl used to come in the roof everyday to see us play my frens started getting excited and started making noise doing all those funny stuffs to get her attention, I was not that interested…hold on c is no the one un my life. After few days I saw another gal with her who was really beautiful and simple..things went on like that all winter. Both of them were there watching us n we were playing. Shreya sent a note to my best fren Tope saying please don’t harass them and we backed off. Things were going like that when one day we saw them waving me n Tope bye. It was feb 28 1998. We knew that they used to study in Darjeeling so we thought ok let it be… nothing changed and life went on for one more year and here was December 1999.

 

They were there again looking at us playing cricket. Shreya started pursuing my fren tope n there relationship started blooming. They used to talk in phone look at each other from roof send letters and cards.. But never met as both of them were afraid of their parents. My another fren lure started liking another girl. Her name was anjali and was cousion of shreya . we got all our info from their brother who played cricket with our smaller brother. She used to come their every once in a while.Lure took me along side of him to follow that girl .look at her in the roof. He was there doing all those stuffs and I was by the side of him just lost in my self doing stuff. And in February the gals asked for phone number of tope through another fren. But he gave them phone number of lure. And in feb 3 1999 they called fot the first time. All of us were excited what are they gonna tell. Tope was talking to shreya first time so he was excited, lure was also excited to talk with anjali and I was excited to know what will go on. We were talking and when lure started talking with anjali she told him it wasnot him c wanted to talk but it was me. He was disappointed and I was confused why c wanted to talk to me. When I talked to her c said c likes me and confessed her feelings for me.. I did not know what to say so I gave her my home phone number and left. From that night on wards c was calling me regulary. My sisters came to know my mom came to know. They were keeping silent that time. She sent me gift and wished me best of luck for my test exam before slc. She even sent me gift in valentines day . That was first ever valentine gift of my life I rembere that valentine cos shivaratri was also same day. But just after valentines day c left for Darjeeling a few days earlier than shreya. I was feeling kind of lost empty and sad inside but I did not know it was love or sth else. One day tope called me n said he got letter frm them frm Darjeeling. Since it was 1^st april I did not believe it. But it was real so we also started sending them letters since there were no emails readily available at that time. I was waiting eagerly for dec 2000.

 

 

 

 

And December was here but there was no trace of shreya or anjali. We were wondering what went wrong . One day I got call from anjali that c is in her sisters home and shreya is not coming this winter cos she had slc that year. She came to shreyas house and we looked at each other s usual from roof  and talked to eachother through phone. Everyone in my family knew about this and my mon and oldest sister were angry cos they though it was too early for me to get involve in love. I was in my 11 grade. So winter holidays of meen pachas were no more ther. She used to wait for me all day long in the roof and I used to come running frm my college just to have more glimpses of her. Even I used to curse god for making days so shorter in winter cos it was dark by 5.30-6. But her roof and my rrom were facing each other in same level so c was there in roof in those cold nights just looking at me n I was there studying all the time and looking at her every once in a while. then we had not meet each other . One day c called me and asked if we could meet. I was so excited. We met for the first time in 8^th December 2000 more than a year after the relation ship beginning.. and what was the first thing I did u know when I met her.. u wont believe it but I measured my height with her cos c was slim and looked really tall but for my luck c was a bit shorter than me..we talked and walked side by side but none of dared to look eacth other in the face,, and this valentine c called me to meet her again… and I was walking with her at night I met my mom and c asked me to go home..i was so afraid hahahaaa… but c never mentioned about that in home.. I had a kinectic Honda at that time but no licnece.. but even I used to go to meet her at her sistes home which was in patan….and the day was there when c had to leave for the Darjeeling 29^th feb 2000. I had to lie both in college and home to get early leave from the college so that I can go to drop her off in the bus park. I called my cousion brother to take me to her house and to bus park. He agreed and we were following her taxi from patan to gongabu bus park since c had her family members with her…and for my luck c was left alone inside bus for half an hour so I went inside there and talked to  her. I put my shades on so she could not see my misty eyes. And c was facing towards window to hide her tears.. and I said her bye and c told me that c was not coming back next  year as she had her SLC exam. I became really upset to know that I was not going to c her for next two years..I came home lost.. confused sad…n depressed…

Teerabau!

Believe it or not. You started your love with love letter. Based on  myth anything started with love letter will not be succeed. If you have started with verbal proposal or something else there is high probable of success in love. So, admit it and research it, anybody who started by sending letter, most of them are failed. I have more than about 50 track of it, all are unsuccessful. One of them is myself too. I started with letter and never succeed. Second I started with verbal proposal which succeed. Therefore, I believe on it. You believe or not.

thank u chicago for ur suggestion i think all of the lovers out there will take this as a point... but i think u havenot read the content quite carefully.... here it is
"We were talking and when lure started talking with anjali she told him it wasnot him c wanted to talk but it was me. He was disappointed and I was confused why c wanted to talk to me. When I talked to her c said c likes me and confessed her feelings for me."
So it was not loveletter at all , we talked in phone and she was the one to propose me... she started it..she ended it

any way thank you for reading

Since all cyber heroes are taking interest in this matter why this cybertroniii should be left behind.. i have gone through your story teroobaau...i have seen these things manytimes around me happening with most of my friends . its said that we guys have no emotions and take things lightly but these are girls who break the relations must of the time if they ever see better opportunity..i think in your case also same thing happened..i don't know yet but its merely a guess. And when one heart is broken the same heart breaks a lot of other heart..its a chain reaction.

ok will be waiting for concluding part

Nice....please make a copy and send it to DEAR KALYAN as well...

......?? waiting for the next post bro.... your story says a million words about your honesty man.... go on... in most of the stories i have read in sajha.... its just made artificially artistic to make it look good in terms of writing... ur's one is from the heart man...

yah waiting for more.......................

The break up occurred during the may 2002. After that even shreya and tope got separated since me and anjali were binding them together. I screwed my exams and I was really disappointed …failed in relation failed in exam. But as time passed by I sort of got over it. I joined my bachelors and started enjoying the days with the friends without thinking of having any other girl in my life. I was happy with myself and was afraid to fall in love so never ever tried to make any new one. She still used to come there but I hardly used to see her. Then here came September of 2003 and it was dashain time. We were there and we heard that shreya and anjali were all alone in their home for whole dashian and tihar as there family had gone Darjeeling and for some reason they did not go. We did not care about them at all. And then they started calling me again.They used to call me again and again. They knew tope had caller i.d in his home so they were calling me but they did not know that I also had caller id. I told tope and we decided to completely ignore them . But when they started calling more often than we decided to call them back. Then we called them and talked. We decided to meet again. And here we four were again together after 2 and half years. Anjali had gone really thin but her charm was as magical as before. We met once or twice and again started going dating. But I was not that serious this time and was taking every step cautiously as I did not want to ger hurt again.

 

During December when we went to shreyas birthday we came home very late so tope and my mom knew we were with them. But I was just teased by my family as I was a grown up lad then. Then there was valentines day of 2004 . We went dating but they were showing some kind of urgency to leave early. So we told ok if you want to go you can. They left. We were suspicious that they were double timing. But still we continued the relation as we had no solid proof. I used to go and meet anjali after her college sometime. One day when I went to meet her she was shocked to see me as if she were expecting someone else. And she told me she had some extra class so she had to go back in again. I knew that she was lying so I hanged around there for a while. And what I see is she was laughing and walking away with some other guy. And that guy was a boy just living two houses away from mine. I was so furious but not hurt because I was prepared for the situation this time. Then she also saw me but walked with him as nothing happened. After that I did not talk to her. Just 10 days after that shreya sold there house and went to live in a chabahil. And we came to know that even shreya was double dating with another guy the guy just infron of topes house. They left early in valentine day just to be with them. Me and tope laughed a lot. But for some reason anjalis new boyfriend started messing up with me and one day when lights went off he attacked me from behind. I got one bad punch and he also got few of mine but he got better out of me since he attacked me from behind. The very next day the guys mom and dad and my parents talked to each other to solve this matter. And that guy told me sorry for all that because I was senior to him and my friends were already looking to get him and did kick ass of some of his friends who assisted him then. But anjali called me and blamed me for everything that had happened and made that guy innocent. That was when my heart truly shatterd into 1000 pieces.

 

My relationship ended but tope and shreya were going along since tope decided to teach shreya lesson. So he started taking all out advantage of her. I used to see her with that guy here and there sometimes.  Then one day tope told me that anjali got married to some other guy and he saw her with pote sindur in her house. And again he saw same thing during teez . I said whatever I don’t care now. He used to bring all those information shreya used to tell him or he used to see to me. I Then after I also made two or three girlfriends but not serious one because love inside my heart was killed by that girl. The last girl I had came really close to my heart but I managed to keep her away. Then the time came when I had to come to U.S for further study. I was coming out from pashupati plaza exchanging my suitcase with my friend when I saw her standing at the gate of pashupati plaza looking at me as if she wanted to talk to me. But I thought she might be here with her husband and must be waiting for him while he parks his bike so I did not talk to her. I would have nevere even thought of talking to her if it had not been the time for me to leave for America. But even then my ego and hatred for her barred me from talking to her…..

 

The coming up will be the last part of my story…………..

 

 

Good job man...u did what she deserved...Hats off

Geroge B. Shaw says,' First Love is only little of Foolishness and a lot of Curisioity '

Going through your story I feel that you had feeling for her and you loved her. You wanted her to know your feelings herself. It doesn't seem that you really made her feel as if you truly loved her. Suspicious/doubts will rather make things worse than you imagine. Probably you had a great chance to get her but it likely seemed that you were always there next door to her but you never made a strong move to get her. She realized that you were not strong enough or not serious about her. So looked other options. Some other guys made a move on time and get her. You remained there just wondering and talking yourself  rather than convinceing. You never showed her how much you wanted her and what she meant to you... It doesn't seem anything that convince her to devote to you .
Over all there was nothing seriousness happen between your relationships that she got to be committed to you.

It would have been better for you if you had dealt the situation different ways. Fine you wasted so much of your time for your first love and happened to get shattred your feelings. Don't take me wrong. There is nobody to blame for it except yourself. Later you afraid of keeping relationship with girls. What if the latter girls really loved you the way you loved her earlier... ?! Well, you might be well experienced by now and matured in relationships dealing now. But have faith yourself and be passionate in love. You will definitely get your love life when you are confidence of yourself.

If you are stil indulging of your shattred love life , I will suggest you forget your whole emotional break up of your past life and start a new chapter of your life . You will feel yourself how great you are and how lucky you will feel the way you agian fall in love and have a soft touch of female .... ! By then you will realize ' how foolish i was being so serious and stupid on the first place .. '

Astu ..

Very nice story.

Since your name is uncle tom you might have more expereince than me and things you are sayinh might be right. But you don't know how much was i dedicated even the first move was from her side. And inspite of age difference ( she was a year older than me), education difference ( while i was in bachelors she was doing her slc) i never made her feel uncomfortable. Its not like a movie that you fight with a bad guy for her to make her feel you truly love her. I was there to do anything share everything and do to make her feel special as a real life guy would do. Suspicion came later on which turned out to be true. So things you have said does not matches well enough with me. Yah for those girls i might have made some mistake because i really never bothered if they truley loved me or nit..I must have done wrong deed then..I agree with you there..and for still getting in her mind you will get your answer in next part...

Please continue with the with the story, it's very interesting.

Nince story I can relate to that........First cut is the deepest bro!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nice going on bro..keep it coming bro ... keep it coming up

hey i heard my friends talking of this love story and was searching for it.. how can a love story like this be left behind in the sajha... it must be on top.. all those shitty topics are there..anyway the story was really nice.. and i feel really sorry for what you have gone through,,girls are really like that..take my word since i am a girl i know how they think or do things.. to say frankly she does not deserve your love..but still the first love is the one you never let go out of your mind.. reading your story i am afraid to fall in love ever... anyway 100/100 for the true tale of love

so as i thought this is also sad love story ... why all love stories ends up with separation or heart break .... if it is so then its not love story any more as there is no love at the end ... its just SAD STORY .... i do have stories where there was love, dokha, ... and many more ... but i now end up with arranged relation which is now turning to be like love ... something like arranged then love ...next will be marriage ... not will be but must be marriage ... terrobaau ... someone somewhere is waiting for you and every other ... so .... aru lay dokha deyo bhandai ma afu pani tyesto garna hundaina ... its not good ... breaking heart is not good ... remember what had happened to you then you won't repeat the same ....best wishes for ya future ...

And I was here in America , pursuing my masters, living American dream, missing family and friends back home and her too once in a while. The days were passing steadily when some familiar kind of name added me as friend in a msn messenger. And the person was she. When I first chatted with her , it took me half an hour to convince myself that it was anjali. I was thinking why a married woman will add her ex whom she left willingly. As we chatted she revealed me that she was never married and did all those things just to push me away. And she told that shreya was never happy to see her and me together as she had found out that I truly loved anjali but tope did not so she got jealouse. She was the one to set up everything for our break up. I was not sure what to believe and what to not. She also told me that shreya forced her to that guy so that she could be with another guy since both those guys were best friend like me and tope.

 

Then she started apologizing, lamenting for all the mistakes she had made. She told me what she did was a mistake not a sin so I should be able to forgive her. I told her its not that hard to forgive but its really hard to forget. If I don’t forget I wont be able to forgive. She took every means possible to convince me. I was slowly drawing towards here once again because of the lonliness we guys normally feel abroad. Then we started chatting regulary. Shw would say that shw would wait for me in the msn and I was there. I was chatting to her till 5 in the morning and she wanted to chat more. And one day when we both turned out webcam on she started crying looking at me. Even my heart melted. But still I kept myself aware and made her clear nothing like before can ever happen before her and me. But I was sinking again and I knew that but could not help me ( what a moron I am). Then she said that there was nothing left in her life except for her mother and was talking depressing things and even revealed her tendencies of suicide. I was afraid because I knew what was going in her life from before. So I tried to keep her happy anyway possible. And on her birthday I sent her gift as well as called hero and talked to her about an hour. She seemed really happy and I was satisfied to make her smile. Things went on and I asked why was not she married. She told me she was waiting for someone ( indicated in sign it was me). Then there was my birthday. She called me , wished me and said sorry for not being able to send a gift freom Nepal . Then we chatted . During the chat the lights went off there so she called ma and we talked again for a while.

 

Then now its been more than two months since we last chatted and now she is gone, She does not come online, does not respond to my sms, doesnot reply my emails and does not even pick up her phone. And I am confused. If she got married in this time I am happy for her ( at least she could have told me). I am also afraid that if she has done something foolish to hurt herself. And my last fear , had I been used and manipulated as before to have my heart shattered by her yet one more time? I know for all the things she has done to me I hate her. I hate her a lot. But I love her a lot more than I hate her. She taught me how to love, how to care and how to suffer. No matter what happenes, where I go whatever I do , she will always be in my heart as my first love and in my mind as my worst nightmare. I am just waiting for her response so that  I could get along with my life knowing what has happened in her life. I am still waiting for this pain to be over…………

 

 

Hope she responds so that I will know everything is allright

 

Till then … the story ends…………….

oh so story is still going on..but bro she is playing with you for sure.. she is taking advantage of your true love for her..i think she does not love you anymore sad but true

Why dont u get information from ur fren Tope. I think its not that difficult to find out what happened to her and why she is not responding you.

no tope is in australia and even kale is in london so i have no way to find out