It feels both really good and bad when you fall in love. Cause love is there to make u fell good and when u fall its always going to hurt even if it is in love. I have the bitterest experience of my life and I am going to share it over here….

It was the winter of 1998 december, u know when we used to have meen pacahs ko chutti. I used to play cricket with my frens all the day long. There was a house near my house which had been sold a long time ago but new owners were not seen till then. That winter the owners came to live there along with there cute daughter shreya…since we were boys and that girl used to come in the roof everyday to see us play my frens started getting excited and started making noise doing all those funny stuffs to get her attention, I was not that interested…hold on c is no the one un my life. After few days I saw another gal with her who was really beautiful and simple..things went on like that all winter. Both of them were there watching us n we were playing. Shreya sent a note to my best fren Tope saying please don’t harass them and we backed off. Things were going like that when one day we saw them waving me n Tope bye. It was feb 28 1998. We knew that they used to study in Darjeeling so we thought ok let it be… nothing changed and life went on for one more year and here was December 1999.

They were there again looking at us playing cricket. Shreya started pursuing my fren tope n there relationship started blooming. They used to talk in phone look at each other from roof send letters and cards.. But never met as both of them were afraid of their parents. My another fren lure started liking another girl. Her name was anjali and was cousion of shreya . we got all our info from their brother who played cricket with our smaller brother. She used to come their every once in a while.Lure took me along side of him to follow that girl .look at her in the roof. He was there doing all those stuffs and I was by the side of him just lost in my self doing stuff. And in February the gals asked for phone number of tope through another fren. But he gave them phone number of lure. And in feb 3 1999 they called fot the first time. All of us were excited what are they gonna tell. Tope was talking to shreya first time so he was excited, lure was also excited to talk with anjali and I was excited to know what will go on. We were talking and when lure started talking with anjali she told him it wasnot him c wanted to talk but it was me. He was disappointed and I was confused why c wanted to talk to me. When I talked to her c said c likes me and confessed her feelings for me.. I did not know what to say so I gave her my home phone number and left. From that night on wards c was calling me regulary. My sisters came to know my mom came to know. They were keeping silent that time. She sent me gift and wished me best of luck for my test exam before slc. She even sent me gift in valentines day . That was first ever valentine gift of my life I rembere that valentine cos shivaratri was also same day. But just after valentines day c left for Darjeeling a few days earlier than shreya. I was feeling kind of lost empty and sad inside but I did not know it was love or sth else. One day tope called me n said he got letter frm them frm Darjeeling. Since it was 1^st april I did not believe it. But it was real so we also started sending them letters since there were no emails readily available at that time. I was waiting eagerly for dec 2000.

And December was here but there was no trace of shreya or anjali. We were wondering what went wrong . One day I got call from anjali that c is in her sisters home and shreya is not coming this winter cos she had slc that year. She came to shreyas house and we looked at each other s usual from roof  and talked to eachother through phone. Everyone in my family knew about this and my mon and oldest sister were angry cos they though it was too early for me to get involve in love. I was in my 11 grade. So winter holidays of meen pachas were no more ther. She used to wait for me all day long in the roof and I used to come running frm my college just to have more glimpses of her. Even I used to curse god for making days so shorter in winter cos it was dark by 5.30-6. But her roof and my rrom were facing each other in same level so c was there in roof in those cold nights just looking at me n I was there studying all the time and looking at her every once in a while. then we had not meet each other . One day c called me and asked if we could meet. I was so excited. We met for the first time in 8^th December 2000 more than a year after the relation ship beginning.. and what was the first thing I did u know when I met her.. u wont believe it but I measured my height with her cos c was slim and looked really tall but for my luck c was a bit shorter than me..we talked and walked side by side but none of dared to look eacth other in the face,, and this valentine c called me to meet her again… and I was walking with her at night I met my mom and c asked me to go home..i was so afraid hahahaaa… but c never mentioned about that in home.. I had a kinectic Honda at that time but no licnece.. but even I used to go to meet her at her sistes home which was in patan….and the day was there when c had to leave for the Darjeeling 29^th feb 2000. I had to lie both in college and home to get early leave from the college so that I can go to drop her off in the bus park. I called my cousion brother to take me to her house and to bus park. He agreed and we were following her taxi from patan to gongabu bus park since c had her family members with her…and for my luck c was left alone inside bus for half an hour so I went inside there and talked to  her. I put my shades on so she could not see my misty eyes. And c was facing towards window to hide her tears.. and I said her bye and c told me that c was not coming back next  year as she had her SLC exam. I became really upset to know that I was not going to c her for next two years..I came home lost.. confused sad…n depressed…