Awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is kinda oxymoron........... neither good nor bad. Be optimastic buddy! I have suffered the same as you have done. But, only thing I didn't get married with a girl like, a flabby white girl, and my parents are still great they are the one who give me compassions. In the course of working my way through college, I had taken many jobs, I would rather forget the job in Donkin's Donut in where I met to Nancy, a white flabby and sweetie. I am kinda a bit unluckly then you, it is coz I didn't get married to nancy for green card, even she told me that she is willing to help me.I had no physicall relation with her besides friendships. I thought Iam the only son of my parents, I need to keep them happy and constant staying on promise that I had made with my parents in Tribhuvan International Airport. Once, I accustomed living in the USA, every body was looking the loophole to get green card, I was amazed why people are acknowledged toward green card process. I found that life in Nepal is much more better. But, political inconstant made more maoist, and people in US have been feeling the great peril to go back own homeland. I had spent one yr in USA . I spent all money that I bought from home, working as parttime didn't tempted me much for food, rent, college, and nightclub at sidetrack every single saturday night. I did have many Indian and Bangali college mates at CUNY(City university of New York), 3 of them were very close to me to get helped for computer programing: C++ and Calculas. One Iindian girl Bbinata singh was so sincere, even I did like her, I thought cast....le gu khayo........ she was not my cast-girl 'bramin'. She always asked me about nepal and the Maosist problem and my future settlement, I used to say I will go back coz I was tried of living in overcrowded place, unculture society, enormous discriminates amoung the color, nationalities and classes. I did like her because she was so beauty, but being a coward I just took her pictures, and said goodbye. I did goodbye to Bhumika, my classmate who always copy my lab assignments, ms. sultana, ofen bought me to library to solve the problem of function, array and pointer........that she felt too hard to understand, and sumitra who often came to me to match the out put, even i taught her samel problem ten times, she often made me laught by asking why program has fatal, syntax and logical error? Anyway, I said goodbye to all, They said we are going to miss you a lot. But, they didn't know that I missed them too. they didn't know my life was quite inconsequential, for me huge credit card debt, maintaining the legal status, and financial burden were the HARD NUT TO CRACK. It was difficult to me to maintain constant study at CUNY; however, I had left 37 credits to complete for Undergraduate level. In fact ,I left NY to live in Virginia and started delivering PIZZA at Damino's and be part timer at Gas Station. I had felt relief from financial problem, kept changing new cars. I Enjoy living in free country, and talk about democracy, this is best country, so I have money, due to the status of my jobs. I had applied for green card as well. I was dreaming to go back to college to complete the remaining cedits after having the green card. I locked in VA having sponshored, but didn't know the fake lawer who tried to cheat me and hundreds of others, he gave me an assurance paper that stay the process is real. Lawer was caught and our money was return, green card is still is in President's hand. Finally, everything is gone, neither got green card nor degree nor money nor bright future. It doesn't matter, you contrubute to US economy by paying tax honestly for many years, it is still inconsequental the way of getting green card. People who have been here two yrs got green card easly, coz they have danced according to the immigration songs and lawer's applauses. One of my friend told me to get married Black girl to get green card, finally, I have to collect $10 thousand, it is the rules made by some pakistani in Baltimore .................I still think, then follow the the knowledge that I have gained from school to college and remember the integrity , then my gut acts as immortal, moreover, stop thinking against cheating to innocent people to fullfill my desire, coz I won't get ride of from the suffer that I have passed