.. It just means that you are insecure, have lack of control in your life,suffering with some OCD (obssessive Compulsive Disorder) and need exciting things in your life than sajha. Why oh why? Mostly people do repeating things to feel secure. For example; watching the same movie again and again before going to bed, when you were little you wanted to hear some same story every night before you would fall asleep. You think your pencil or underwear is lucky and you would like to have it when you're taking a test. Insecurities , insecurities, lack of self-confidence and that leads to OCD, and that is why you are here in Sajha.com asking for help from us when you should be helping yourself. It's not sweet and it's not funny... you do have problems... remember the last time you had hard time dumping that clingy guy of yours who you never liked but stayed in the relationship.. same thing; insecurities. I wonder how your childhood was like. Were you missing a father figurative in your childhood. Most people develope sense of insecurities if they lack the father figure when they were getting raised.. ok now, cut the crap.. you said you need help but you're still here.. so go and try to find something intersting to do.... cut your finger nails or pluck the hair from your nipples... or something.. peace outtttttttttttttttttttttttttttt