It never felt so different when people asked me, How are you doing? I felt difficult this time. I truly felt something different. Before today I used to say, "all good" or "I am fine". But today I felt different. I felt really hard to say I was all good or I was fine. My heart was heavy. It was not like before. Something I thought was about me was truly sad to know. I felt really bad. I felt really sad. It was hard to accept. Very very hard to accept. I honestly felt so bad. I never got it. I never understood it. I should have not taken to so easily. I feel so guilty for myself.