After a bit shaky Sunday yesterday, I decided I won’t have a mundane Monday. The weather in Kathmandu is as whimsical as a women having PMS. It rains for ½ hour then it will be SUNSHINE for like 2 hours then again rain the whole rest of the day. Let me tell you, I just love rain.

But that is not what I was planning to share. Sometimes when you are ill, you, just look for a better tomorrow. That was exactly what happened to me today. After a sick Sunday, I was all charged up for a better Monday. And then it all started.

I am the kind of person, if I decide to have a good day, I will. You can try really had to screw it….I will unscrew it back. This lady in my department had developed a very good imagination that I am her competition.Which again I will take as a compliment. Anyway, the office gave me some more benefits for my contribution for couple of projects. And I guess she was absolutely pissed with that. I wonder why people can’t be happy for others or let’s say work hard to outsmart them rather than sitting and whining about it.

So she was throwing tantrums and giving me a cold shoulder all morning. Did I feel bad? Of course I did. But I think I brushed it off by feeling bad for her for having such a small heart. I would have felt similarly but then again, I think I would have worked harder to be better than her. I started listening to some good music which indeed helps in such situation. I was out of the little bad feeling I was having in no time.

Next was my supervisor. He was giving me a real hard time by not letting me do things I want to do, that is for last couple of weeks. I guess it is with every immediate supervisor. They have this big insecurity that if you do well, you will be promoted and hell! He can’t control you anymore. Or let me be more positive, you will probably overshadow him more and more and you will be his/her boss. That is a nightmare for any boss, that his subordinates getting promotion and rising above him. Remember all the hard time he has given you? Now it’s payback time….LOL. But no I am not getting any promotion here but his problem is that he doesn’t want me to grow. So every time I try to be more creative with my job, he will say “No, it won’t make a difference, let’s stick to the initial plan”.

So today, I let him talk for almost an hour in our team meeting and when the almight super boss asked if we have any inputs, I got up and I explained in detail why it will not work and what other option do we have for this and the results will be 100% positive at the end. I was waiting for this chance for a very long time. I could have not gotten a better opportunity to prove myself than this. If my supervisor tries to make my life miserable and if I plan to quit, now the super boss will not let me. Finally I am in a very safe zone. Call me smart or shrewd; I know I have just fought for myself in an environment invaded by unhealthy dominance.

"Today" had reminded me one more time, that who will fight for their right will survive. She who stands for her rights will be accepted at the end. I could have been just a worker with no existence in the work space but I choose to stand and prove myself. I know it will not be easy from here but atleast I know that I can fight and that is all that matters for me to survive.