I love giving exams. It drains my brains out. I stop eating properly, my sleeps are disturbed and my whole routine messed up. I lose weight. LOL. That is the story of the end of my semesters. I have a full time job so I barely go to college and I have to do self studies. I am not complaining since this is what I have chosen for myself.

             ( First a special mention to Lamps, Karnali_Blues, Mercynova, Rahulvai Uncle and Neo for keeping me company in sajha chat while I was going through my books last night. If it was not for these guys, I would have dozed off as early as 10pm and it would have been Irrepairable, so thank you all!!)

            Today morning before setting off for the exams,mum oh how religious!! puts bibhuti on my forehead and gave me subhasagun Dahi and like always said “ Jati pardheko chas tyo bhanda dherai lekhera aaulas” ( I always roll my eyes after this statement).

            Finally inside the hall, I don’t know anyone, so basically I am on my own. Around 40 students in one room, there was aunty from the bank, who is doing this course to get a promotion, another dai from army who is also fighting for a promotion to be a Colonel, Mother of two kids doing her masters to get a degree and so on. Most of the ladies looked pretty decent and seems studious and were reading the books until right before the exams unlike me.

  I had no armor, no shield, no weapons in the form of small coded writings on papers. I am a chicken, I can’t cheat. My conscience doesn’t let me. I sweat like a pig if I have to. I have no guts to take codes to the exam hall, Never. Anyway when the bell rang, I knew exactly how much time I have and how much time I have to give each question. A case study of 40 credits, I ll do it in 1 hour 20 minutes and rest 3 choice questions each of 20 marks within ½ hour plus minus. And remaining 10 minutes for reading the questions and revising at the end. All planned and all set.

I am not a distinction holder but I am smart to manage my time. Anyway, losing no more time, I started writing my paper. And my fingers hurt, lack of writing speed and practice. So every 20 minute I took a break for couple of seconds, stretch and look around who is doing what. Man was I not shocked, everyone was copying, LITERALLY Copying. One got a big stack of paper inside her kurta’s falls. Another lady got a big piece of rectangle paper right clasped between her folded two legs. The worse was the lady sitting two rows ahead of me, copying everything from her smartphone ( we are asked not to bring phones to the exam center, and even if we bring we have to switch it off). 

Now the dilemma was whether to get up and tell the invigilator “HEY THEY GOT CHEATS, KICK THEM OUT, CANCEL THEIR EXAMS!!!”, or sit down tolerate it and do what I got to do. I studied all night pestering my online friends to not let me sleep, mugged 3 books in one night, got dark circles and headache in the morning JUST to pass this exam and here the ladies are all copying so shamelessly.( Nope the idea of cheating never crossed my mind)

In a “twaaa” state of mind, I called my mum after the exams and said “ Mama, I might just pass but I have honestly earned it. You should be proud of my B plus grades”. I am sure she has rolled her eyes this time…LOL.