Dude, get out of it. I know you can because MDMA is not addictive. Just realize that what you feel during high is not quiet real and that feeling doesn't last for ever. Although, you realize a lot of things about your life and loved ones, MDMA is simply not the way to treat your personal problems. People do it for recreational purpose, especially at Raves and such, but don't ever do it to solve the problems, otherwise you will get deep into Depression. If you feel like you want to do it again and again, seek professional help, its readily available.