Hey moneyminded, I can't really make you out, but whatever you are... some of your postings give me the heebeejeebees! And particularly this thread is very insensitive... dedicating it to your parents. If you regret something or sorry about st... make up now. Don't create an after death scene and express your complexities. I don't know about others but I found this jibberish pretty disturbing. For gods sake... spare your parents from yourself. Are you deliberately trying to push yourself off your rocker? SofT