I woke up to start my day as usual. It has already been my daily routine to wake up at 8.30 in morning. My mind alarm acts much better than alarm clock in that case..........I walke toward the toilet to brush my teeth as i get thirsty and tried to open the freeze on my way..............it looked strange ...................i feel like i am invisible..........i could not get the grip on handle................i rushed to toilet and got shocked to see no image of myself.I got lost an shocked for not seeing the image. I trun around and saw my body lying in sofa.............was i dead? yeah i was death................so many things started to hit my head..............i got shocked and numbed................i sat on the floor quietly.........Then after a hour i saw police, ambulance and fireman breaking the door and coming in.......................there was huge crowd trying to look inside my flat what was happened. I heard police calling my father after checking no in my mobile.................I was wraped in big plastic bag in zipper................i follow them to hospital as they cant see me or feel me..................On the hospital door my dad was waiting for me......................she was crying and his eyes was full of tears holding him by my brother..................he came near and slowly opend the bag and found me sleeping in quite state...................he sat on the floor..............................................all of the sudden the big white light took me to the flashback when i was in inside my mums womb................i saw my dad trying to communicate saying" mero chora, mero beta" they were so happy there just waitng to for me to come...............then i saw myself coming out and the happiness in their face....................it made me cry .........everything was like movie there............................then scene changed to the place where i was starting my first steps..........my dad was holding my hand and making me walk..........all those small thing make me realise how precisous i was............................... all of a sudden the scene changes to my age of 21 where i was arguing on my GF. i was supporting my Rai gf...........they obivosly wanted me to marry the chettrini gal.......i was defending her.............they were not ready...........i slamed the door and left since then i never look back to them............................when i was in real out world trying to establish...................my gf showed me real face coz she realise that i nothing but broke without my parents..........she left me........they were right................ i dont have any point to go back and i started my own journey..................i was wanted to go back but i never made attempt..............i always said that to myself when i will be something on my own i will go back.....................My ego was big there.......I never call my parents.....................my bro told me to call mum coz she was really worried .........................i call her back after 2 yrs..............she asked me to come back................i said i will mum but let me be something." jindagi ma kehi garera matra ghar maa khta halchu and mukh dekhauchu". i still didnot apologise even i wanted ...............i was stuborn since i was kid....................... Now, today i am going to show my face with closed eyes and cotton on nose...............sleeping like baby..................all my pirde and ego went in vain like evapoarted spirit...........................i could not resist my mum sorrow and she was crying..................i slienty touched her feet and kiss in her cheeks and forhead...................then left. i call on my lord shiva....................i screamed and screamed......................" finally he came and said what can i do for u son" i said" god pls forgive me and let me born as my mum son again" he said" son it is granted but u have to wait another 100 yrs till then u will be a lost soul wondering in planet................................