Hey guys,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i cant wait to share my feeling how i feel this morning when i wake up....................... 1. I have been smoking weed since i was 13 yrs old....................... It is first time in my life i havent somke weed for 1 week coz there is shortage of weed in market and the dealers are busted badly..............i switched to second option Red wine...............which is working , helps me to go to bed................and thanks to sajha which keeps me alive in absence of weed........... 2. this morning miracle happened after i seen my lord pashupatinath, bole bhandari smiling at my face and just walked away and he got lost from my sight. 3. i came to work , my brain is so active like never happen before...................i feel like i can finish all the equation from algebra book which we use to do it in school life. Shiva has blessed me , i guess , i have started to feel responsibites for my family. 3. First time in my life , i am sending money to my mother even though she dont need it. 4. first time , i called my dad this morning after not taking to him for 3 yrs 5. first time, i feel how hard it is to raise the children and save money for the kids education. 6. one question raised my head.....................what is life? is the meaning of life is mukit from this pain and sin.......................how can god say that is sin and that is not 7. I realise that if i go to yamlok i can raise question to yamraj, i can challange him,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,god can be challanged if u r rite and u can prove 8. I realise that Mahadev is actually alien who teach us the art of living 9. i have dicided not to be patroatic............i dont have nation, i dont have relegion, idont have caste and creed..................i am changing my caste to sarki now.................... 10. I am saying bye bye to weed and dicided to start raw food vegetarian diet for my entire life 11. i am quitting the cooked food coz i realised cooked food are toxic, i am going back to nature and going to be vegetarian to improve my vibes