Dear De,

Being a woman, I can feel your pain. But being unmarried, I don't understand the word "loyal."   When you say "loyal" it refers to all the promises he made  before the marriage OR it refers to his personal satisfaction without you in a married relationship.

If you said BOTH, I would not bother to worry about the personal one.  After all, he has been talking to you all these years on Skype.  And, of course, men in every society they have little more freedom than women.

LET suppose if tomorrow he says he does not care about his Green Card ko Chakar n want to come to Nepal and wants to live and work in Nepal, would you like to hear that?

And, its been 5 years, so it means I hope you've been applying for DV for 5 times, so lets hope this 6th time you'll get it. Lets stay on the positive side.

Above all, How did you meet this guy? 

I hope, wish, pray, for you  that everything will  be better tomorrow.

P.S. Its better to marry a man with an empty pocket than to marry  a man with a bucket of  promises.