I met her in my first semester. We got along with each other, after a while we started living together. In December of 2010, she had terrible news, she was having baby. I tried to convince her to go for abortion. She was too caring to go for that. It inflamed a big arguement , and ultimately a big fight. She left everything and went back to Nepal even without informing me. I was okay for first few days, but then I started realizing how much did I love her and how stupid I became. I felt very guilty and planned to go to Nepal  to meet her , apologize and to ask to marry me. Bought engagement ring and sorry card . I travelled back to Nepal and finally I went to her home. Her younger sister open the door and told me what happened after she came to Nepal. Then I realised I was too late to apologise, and she couldot forgive me even she would like to. I couldnot control, turned back and returned home . I cried a lot over my stupidity. I came back to us . I tried to forget whatever I did, but I couldnot. Each day kills me. Even though I smile and laugh with friends, deep within heart , I am crying all the times. 
 Everyday I wake up and snooze the alarm, the same ring I bought for her which is now  infront of our photo ,reminds me of the whole thing. Though it is painful , I try to control tears. Today , I cried once again. Feb 05- 2012 , exactly one year from the day she was found breathless in her room.