everest, thanks for your suggestions bro. you made me think for a while and after thinking, i started feeling better. 

i feel like today's day was much more productive; in fact, one of the most productive days this semester (excluding the days i studied for midterms and stuff...haha) there's no test until next week, but still....did quite a lot today. woke up at 5:30 with a goal to go to gym but it's cold like ice these days so, i decided not to go. at least, i woke up at 5:30 instead of 7:30 like other days. did quite a bit of studying (haven't done that for long time), finished two essays that are due on wednesday! that's like a big YEAH BAABY!! because last time, i procrastinated so much that i finished the essays right before they were due. completed an application for grant, wrote a reference letter which my mentor will approve/change and submit for me.
- on the fun side, watched TV for like an hour, baked some nice n hot chocolate chip oatmeal cookies as "khaja", now i'm going to sleep a sound sleep. 
dang, this feels so good; much better than it felt yesterday. still need to work on this habit of checking deals on amazon, peeping at facebook, sajha, and gmail multiple times an hour though. i do almost all of my work - study, homework, etc on my laptop, so it's a little hard to resist.

all i can hope now is keep things straight and not deviate again. let's see how things go on the long run.

destination....learn from a yesterday's lazy fag and today's active ME....haha.
keep things tight bro, the more you let things loose, worse it becomes.