This thread has made me realize that my quest to satisfy my confusion to whether i should believe in a GOd isnt a one-day adventure.

 

Starting this thread, I was expecting i would hear more from theists and see what makes them still believe in GOd. It surprised me to see it was quite the opposite. ALL my nepalese friends are super religious and that was making me feel like i was becoming a bad person.  I found a weird comfort to know that there are other Nepalese folks who have digressed from their religion and it isnt just me. I still dont have a conrete opinion on this but i feel less frustrated about these thoughts coming to me.  I just feel more at ease with this confusion and more willing to explore rather than be afraid. It hasnt made me change my perspectives though. 

 

For now, i am willing to stay confused and be open to what others have to say. I must admit to you however, that this thread has served more to make me lean towards atheism rather than the opposite as i was hoping. Saying that, i would still love to listen to your full story though and i will not make fun of it. 

 

I still feel a little vacuum for in the past when someone was unfair to me, i would say to myself "God will give me justice" or "god will look after me" and it would give me hope and strength. But now i am like "i wish there really was a GOd who could give justice to the right always". My easy source of hope is gone. It frustrates me a little. And just to let others know, i am having these thoughts not because my prayers were unanswered for when i prayed for something in the past, i usually got it.