LovesToSuggest,

I am a theist. But I don't disrespect people who don't have have the same existential stance as I do.
I appreciate your honesty and I respect your perspective. I admire your willingness and courage to be sincere and honest with your viewpoint. Really.

What you said shows me that you have thought deeply about these questions. It shows an open-mindedness. And it shows that you are being true to your belief. I respect people like that.

Honestly speaking, I respect well-thought out athiests and open-minded deep thinkers like you more than I respect sentimental theists who are simply believing God because they are weak-minded and they are doing it out of fear or culture or something like that.

My friend, I too once took your very stance that you are taking. And then one day I got the answers that I needed to change my beliefs. It was not easy. It was very difficult for me. I didn't grow up a very religious person.

Like all Nepalese I went to pujas and bhajans because my relatives did it. But I never gave it a lot of importance. I never gave it absolute seriousness. And then in my teenage years I went through certain experiences that were profound. And they really changed my perspective. These experiences were very deep.
At first I was very troubled and disturbed by these experiences. I didn't want to believe that it was happening. But after a while the power of these experiences...which happened repeatedly, made me take another look at my beliefs. I didn't want to believe it. It was scary to think what believing in this would make me do.

It was scary to imagine how dramatically my life would change if I changed my beliefs. So I totally respect what you are saying, LovesToSuggest.

It is wonderful to meet a well-thought out person like you here on Sajha.