I agree with Pixie. I miss Nepal but I don't miss my extended family, no matter how selfish I sound. My mom keeps telling me that my extended family will be there when I'm in need and what not but how's that possible when they're fighting with their own blood? (cousin who doesn't talk to his own brother/sister), uncle who doesn't keep in touch with others? Further, its a really materialistic world, is it not? 

Ironically, a majority of them are financially sound and wealthy. But even then, I don't know. When I was in Nepal, I felt sadder than Gautam Buddha did when he went outside his palace. Misery, Dhulo, Dhuwan, loadshedding, lack of water, 'uncivilized' people. Not that I've forgotten my roots, which I never will but in over 6 years, I've adapted to the American culture so much that a move back home seems like a regress. My mom keeps insisting that we can make a lot of money in Nepal and how "afno matribhoomi is afnai" and I keep telling her that I don't disagree but at the same time, to secure my own future, I wish to invest in the US to secure my future so that 10 years from now, I could take vacations in Nepal, Europe, Australia and other places of the world whenever I wished. 

I'm so used to independence and popent administration that spending more than 10 minutes in the waiting line (like I had to when I was in a queue to pay my telephone bills) is a backward step. 

All that said, I miss my closest friends,cousins, uncles, aunts, family members etc but I'm happy here (albeit not colorful,yet).