This may be due to the loneliness that I am feeling right now even in presences of friends or this may be that I have been living in states separating from family and friends. This may be due to differences that I have been realizing between living in states and home country or this may be due to the on-going downfall of my home country due to political instability. There could be several reasons but I feel like this is due to everything, from small to large, from failures to success, from frustrations to expectations, from sorrowfulness to happiness, from hatred to love,  from poor to rich, from uncivilized to civilized, from immaturity to maturity and so on.

Again, I want to write a lot today. In continuing, it is well known philosophy that when people over exceeds their expectation from achievements, then it result frustrations. Mathematically, frustrations = expectations - achievements and frustrations > 0. So it could be this frustration that I want to write. Recalling one of the interesting article, well written by someone (unknown to me). Watch this if you haven’t earlier http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=idPEZdkgCIA.

Human mind is very versatile, although in reality one cannot do a lot of things but they are gifted with mind, which can travel even faster than the speed of light. To realize this, if you keep thinking all the time about something, assume future days (or your favorite) then it is possible that you might end in future (your favorite) in your dream through your mind. Another example is, if you watch this video then it will take your mind to somewhere else at once.
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http://kehigarau.web.officelive.com/_menu.aspx 

What’s the point in writing all these? Am I deviating from what I want to write to what I am writing at present? May be. This happens if one does not have specific objective or topic. Other possibility is, if one has too many topics to write and wants to write all.

In my case it’s both but for now let me write about the former one. Hence, choosing the topic “What really went wrong and how can we make it right”? This has been triggering my mind many times. I hope if you are in between age 16 -26, you might have hit this discussion earlier with your friends too. One of the best solutions can be found by watching this video http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9rQRys-BL-o&feature=related and following its objective.

Again, I want to write a lot today. At this moment, another question hits my mind? Did I fail to perform my duties and take responsibilities? or Did my generation fail to carry out their duties and take responsibilities? Or it is really the common habit of blaming others specially the political leaders or all the high ranking government officials and/or if this was the truth?

Nepal was built even before United States was built and yet today we are receiving donations/loans from United States to reconstruct it. This is really an awful and heartbreaking truth that needs to be accepted and be aware of.

Now I have been surviving in States for more than 3 years, with homesickness and loneliness that often frequently comes like the frequent waves of the ocean shore. So Am I doing wrong here, not doing my assigned duties? I am earning 10 times more than I would be able to earn it in Nepal? To me this decision is more correct but there comes question again? What is right and wrong action? Obviously, this decision seems to be quite correct but it contradicts when we hear news like 40, 423 youths left the country in just one month for opportunities in abroad countries?

At same time, I would love to blame the political parties and the leaders not fulfilling their duties and responsibilities? Tell me why I should not and I hope we are all in the same boat here? Just to point out, why we should blame them is, the 3 major parties have been trying to write a new constitution for such a freaking long time, making more and more months extension. If they require such a long time just to write new constitution, how long will it take them to really bring that implementation into practice?

It is good to have hopes but what to hope if they don’t realize their responsibilities. And who is the best person to make them realize this factor? The recent political debate is on the “hand over of the keys for the weapons container”. Even in this simple practice, all the political parties have different opinion. All the 3 major parties and the smaller parties have their own opinion and it conflicts with each other and this is true even within a party itself. Therefore, I don’t see any good source of hopes here?