Dude, sorry to hear that you are feeling depressed lately. People can fun of this all they want but if they havent been through it, they dont know what it really feels like. Depression doesnt look like a real illness because nobody can see a person's inner state of mind. You can be in total darkness and still look okay on the outside.

One thing that might help you feel better is by talking to people, by connecting with people. Just try being around people. Do not shut your friends out. Talk to some of your close friends about how you feel and why you think you are feeling that way. It is hard talking about these things to other people but it helps. Most of your friends will not even understand what you are talking about but there will be 1 or 2 who will understand and they might even open up about the same problems they have. Trust me, you are not the only one who is feeling this way, there are others out there but they are too embarressed to talk about it.

If the symptoms go beyond your control, please get help. And just to let you know, there is nothing wrong in getting help. You are worth it and you owe it to yourself to reach out for help. Hope you feel better and hope happiness will once again resurface in your life.