Being silent visitor of Sajha for over a decade, I was first thinking of not writing, but then I decided against it. Here I try to write my own case with not so many details for those who want to observe from others. I hope it could be a help for those in need, for others I have nothing to say. I am sorry to write beforehand that I will not answer any comment written for my writing, though seriously interested people can reach me thru e-mail from my Sajha profile (I created to post this writing), I will try my best to share my experience with them.

I am now in Europe for a short visit, will be back to Nepal soon. I had never been to USA but wish to be there sometime with my wife and two children for a holiday trip, and even if it is not possible, I have no regrets. I think, ten years from now the world would be more like a global village where it won't matter if you live in part-A or part-B of the world.

About my case, after graduating in Nepal, I worked in a Nepalese company for sometime and I had a chance to visit work for an European company. I also had luck to frequently visit my country, so in the sense I was never "out of touch" from my homeland. To make a long story short, I could have "managed" to get citizenship of one of the European country (those days it was not difficult, even visa was given in airport arrival counter), but I didn't allow myself for the "paper marriage" or something similar. I remained with my green passport, and still I own it, though many times renewed.

Life was good (still good, and hope to be better in future), but you don't feel like being home when you're abroad. Nowadays internet gives you a feeling of being close to home, but it also gives you more homesickness. And since I was not permanently in one country, it was like travelling in two boats - and you do not belong to any of them. One might claim to not to be a racist, but everyone has it in his blood - though the quantity may vary. This is what I personally feel, but America could also not be much different. Even if you get citizenship, you are not in their group, though legally you have same rights like them. So a man with feeling will remain alone.

I see here many Nepalese around me, unlike people leaving for Gulf countries or even for Korea or Japan in working visa, people those who came here are from somewhat "well off" families. Most of they are educated, but they don't see future in Nepal, and unfortunately I don't see their future here either. They do work hard here, which they might have never thought of while they were in Nepal. They work, they earn well, and they spend well (saving makes rich, not earning, only some know it here.). This is the case who are legally here, those who are not, it breaks my heart in peaces to talk to them about their situation here and back home, though they have the same old jolly good arrogance the next day when they are sober.

I appreciate their dream of making a house in Kathmandu. But I wonder how. Even with a saving of lakh rupeese per month will bring them nowhere near of buying 4-anna land in Kathmandu in next 5 years (my assumption, price will not fall down since supply is scarce).

Forgive my gloomy words, but it could be eye-opener for some.

Now back to track again. A couple of years back when I was once again in Nepal, I talked with some of my friends and we gathered a group. Most of they had seen a couple of years life of "foreign" country (also US). So hard working was not a proble. We formed a group of friends. This has one reason, if you start something in your own, and by bad chances you failed once, you will not have the guts to start it again. In a group (also the thinking level should match), you have many eyes hands, and could start a work five times bigger which you would not risk to do it alone. And when you start something big, expansion will be huge. We are still in trail period, but already thinking of expansion in the related field. Since we collected money in as a group, nobody is hurt badly financially. Now their are people with money who want to help us financially to expand our project, only to be a sleeping partner in profit. This we had not imagines when we started the work. Seeing all this, not only myself, I am also bringing some of my European Nepalese back home - they only needed someone to show the way. Of course it is much harder to make a way than to walk on a readymade path.

Sorry for being discreet on what we are doing in Nepal. I could only tell that whatever you do, it will give you a big joy to do it in your country. So far our work is related to the "basic need" of people, produced in Nepalese soil - consumed in Nepal (now). A field which was never in dream thought by any of my friends (myself included) to involve into.

To the originator of this thread, I would like to wish you all the best for your new career back home. Life is fighting for solutions until death. Decision is yours! Personally I don't see many complications in your case, I am sure once you start your job, you will build up good network, and spend longer time in the same field (though may not in the same bank) - like the people from INGOs who keep shifting from one to another.

And please remember to do something good for those who want to do something (even whatever small it is) in their own country and want to be with their family together.
(For typing mistake, if any, because of long text and short time, I apologize in advance).