Fellows, Please don't be mean to this disconsolate heart. The siutation she has landed right now, may be your sister or daughter could land one day. My advice to this girl is don't look at your past. Try to make a home with your current hispanic husband and try to live your life happily. Life has so much meanings and don't wast ur time looking at ur filthy past. If you are still in queens area and would like to share your feelings, you can haul at me, Romario, your big brohter. Good luck to you, Romario.