Ola, I think dubna laageko gham is better now but my mind is playing games with me. talk about insomnia, delusions. flights of fancy, hallucination, manic-depression I have it all. I was complled to seek medical help as I could not go to sleep for four straight days and started to hallucinate - about what? i will write a story about that someday. I was on some powerful meds but they made me more unstable and I was constantly having suicidal thoughts, everyday after work I would drive home in the dark evening and as the snow flakes fell on my headlight I wanted to end it all by ramming my car into a semi or something. But the best advise if anyone is depressed is family. Just being with them makes a lot of difference and a good routine helps a lot too. As for me things are better now(that was a year ago and I have quit taking the medicines that they prescribed me for bi-polar disorder) but once in a while I still get a bout of depression...the only way out is to make it a part of your life and not freak out. All the medicines are just temporary relief- that is how some brains work, yes it is chemical imbalance but it is your mind, nobody knows it better than you do. So any number of sacrifices you have to make, make it to learn to live with this wonderful and reckless brain. mG.