I am in the crowd where people pretend not to see me. Like a forgotten celebrity I fade in the background. I am in the crowd where people gaze at me with pity. Like a clown I stand there while they laugh at my posture. I am in the crowd where people start whispering. Like a fool I sit on my wheelchair looking. I am sorry I make you feel uncomfortable, Honestly thatýs not my intention. I am sorry I want to play just like any other, I am only looking for acceptation. I am sorry people stare because of me, If only my mother had done abortion. Not only am I trapped in my personal hell, But also this life for me is worse than cell. Everyday even for simple task I suffer so much, Donýt know how much longer on this life I can clutch. Not that I expect anyone to understand As my own brother pushes me away. Yes, I am different than any of you And I may need special ed. I may not be ýcoolý, I may not be a ýhottieý But am I not human with feelings? My pain only I can comprehend My only request can you stop calling me a ýretardý?