oi kukurni..!! Mwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh (la pugyo talai topahni bolaunu...feels closer calling u kukurni..and what others think..laat maarooo..) as i said earlier in me post earlier^...so here i am gonna write to you...dyam and am i feeling in a reflecting mood...(smthing just happened..and not smthing good..alik jyaauuu feeling but i guess alik serious mood pani bhoying..its not a big deal..just smthing that cant be changed..so not gonna talk about it here..) la what shall i write now..well tayro kura garnu parla(well i always like to talk about you.)...this is ur thread too ni..;o).. just kasto kay kay kay bhanum maan laaging..but then again..now feeling a bit like old me(the old me who doesnt wanna talk and tell everything)...dunno..now a bit dun feel like bhak bhaking..(but just a while ago..when well guess the mood really there...just wished you were here.and i could tell you everything) well i just will try to see what i can bhak bhak hai..without wel tellingl you know smthings well better not said..dyam do i feeel vulnerable now...but then again..yo ta tayro thread...i do feel safe here...when ur there...when i feel ur presence (mind mah presence..and well smtimes another kinda presence...real life ma ta hoina..not for now anyways...:oS..but one day who knows...) "this presence " of yours mkes me feel so safe...laat maar world ko...whatever think of me..or you..or anyone else...laat marrooo whatever shit there is out there.....whatever shit is gonna be thrown at me at you..or anyone out there.....i know am ready for alll those shit esp with your presence..dyam!!Chow chee bye!!..what kinda freak are you...makes me feel so good..even when shit is happening to me...i do hope every freaking shit out there..has someone like you around them...dyam!! in this world full of shit...we do need a kurkurni like you...who makes us feel good about ourself...and makes us think good about others... this freaking world ..always full of shit.....if only we could just bomb the bloody freaking whole thing and everything just goes BOOOM!!...and the world ceases to disappear...and then a new one starts...and dyam....a world where they have good shit..esp ppl like you..freaking...all these shitty human feelings...greed...jealousy...hatred..any other nahuney nahuney feelings..those humanly feelings we humans have..supposed to have...esto feelings lai laat maroooo!!!..esp when ur being greedy....showing jealousy..for all the wrong reasons...(hatred chai dyam...never think anyone can hate anyone for the right reasons..cant think of any reasons...well i got puny mind..which doesnt really work..) dyamm!!...but have i ever seen these kinda feelings from you??..(ok..your gonna say...i dunno you too well..havent really known u for too long..but i know you!!BHUJISH!!!i see smthing in u..smthing i freaking never seen in anyone..and most prob never will ...and nots cos ur trying to show that thing to me..its actually cos ur freaking trying to hide it!!! ..ever thought i do know you more than well..you do know yourself..more than anyone ever will...if u dun think so...laat marrooo what u freaking think!!...cos i think this way..and you cant freaking stop me BHUJISH!!!..if u wanna stop me!!! start thinking why i think ths way about u..and start beleiving it..and see if thats really u!! u be freaking surprised to know its all true...had been there all the while!!).. CHOW CHEE BYE!!....always seeing so much lop from you...and that too always for others..freaking piece of shit!!..shit who doesnt really freaking you the way i see you...freaking blind ppl haru ko eyes nikaleyra...let them be blind for real...what uses are eyes..that cannot see..and maybe transplant them to blind ppl who has never seen the world.dyam..these ppl will appeciate it...will know how to appreciate..and see the good things in life...for the goodness they have...freaking ppl like you..(is there any other person/ppl like you? i actually freaking dun think so there is..but just being optimistic.hoping there..is..cos well dyam...do i feel happy knowing you..and dyam do i wanna others to feel the same happiness im feeling...)...and if u think...im not really seeing the true you...F**K OFF!!..i know what i seee...and i believe what i see..dun need others to tell me ..this is this..this is that..(in some things yap i need to be told...on things i have no idea on...im always willing to learn...but freaking shit!!!...on this seeing you for who you are..dyam!! freaking others should start opening their eyes more and well try to spot ppl like you)..so laat marrooo to any smartarse wanna be who wants me to stop thinking this way..or well wanna "show" me reality...i freaking khow whats reality..but f**k me...i lop to dream..and mamphaka...you is freaking make me dream like never before....and i get freaked out smtimes too...cos shit..wtf!!! i never seem to any shit about you...that will tell me..."topah ur not in a dream..she does exist..cos there is some imperfection ..which is considered imperfection..so dun worry too much".. but WT!!...when u "try" to show me those imperfections...dyam...freaking shit..the nice things about you appears and freaking shines!!! i tell u!!..dyam think im gonna go blind soon one day..cos dyam its so freaking!!! bright!!!...( well though i dun like to...think i should get me a shade and wear it..when talking to you...hah.imgine .. me...wearing a shade..talking with u...and what a liner it will be when i say...i'll be back when i go for me regular achi.or susu break..i mean dyam...its u who takes the break most of the time...me chai...always trying to control...hehe..well i do have a limit...guess smtimes u hve seen me go...) ...so freaking!! stop trying to show me ur imperfections or whatever u call it..cos dyam..guess u cant force me to see it...cos theres not much(or maybe u dun have none!!!:o| well i know no one is perfect..but dyam..after knowing u...i starting to think otherwise) (freaking loong lekhio!!!! continued!!!!!!) Mwwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh..!!!