I had once confronted her and she started crying n telliing me tht she carried me for nine mths and then broought in this earth and now i was doing this her n stuff......as for 5 mths i asked and she said she didnot have the idea until she went to a doctor and the doctor told her she was 5 mnths preg...this was the answer i got.......she didnot want me as far as she told me is she already had 3 kids who only had a yr difference and i have 5 yrs difference from my sister thtght it was a late preg she was 28 and she was embarrassed. when i was a kid,She once was talking to her friend and my mom's sister didn't have any child at tht point so instead of saying i was her child she told i was her sister's child....I was 8 or nine yrs old at tht time n my mother's sis was there too. 

As for my father he has tucked me in bed when i was little. he has given me all the love he cld and i love him....he used get me ready for school. he used to come to my school functions. my mom never came to mine.i used to come home from school finding my mom went to shopping and bought everybody sth but me.As a child it wld make feel terrible and now I feel more terrible after visiting Nepal.It brought back all the memories.. Everybody seems to be thrilled goin back and I was too but now nop. 

My siblings were older than me so i really did not communicate wid them much coz they wld be of almost same age i wld be the youngest and they wld not play wid me so i wld either watch tv or read books or play wid frens......my siblings don't see any problems n I really dont miss any of them...coz we didn't have the bonding....