Chicksrock,

It sounds like you feel abandoned. Your mom's overt ignoring you and what you feel to be neglecting you seems to hurt you a lot. It is very hard to cope with feeling like your own parents--and that your mother, doesn't want you or respect you. It sounds like you are struggling to find acceptance in her life just like your siblings have found a place in her heart. Perhaps you are wondering what is wrong with you that makes her reject you but accept your siblings. What did you do wrong? It wasn't your fault that you were born an unwanted child. It is hard not to take responsibility for the way your mom is treating you. Perhaps you blame yourself that you did something wrong to be treated this way.

Do you?