Heavy feelings…Something is in my chest pressing hard, how
can emptiness be this heavy? I do not feel bright at all. Yes, there is a
strong, dark force trying to keep me guarded by that emptiness. It is so strong
that it is keeping my eyes closed, forcing me to glance inside. No, I cannot
see anything there, just a feeling of heaviness. No, it is not a depression,
but it is not peaceful either.

Train of thoughts…..How can a person think so many illogical 

thoughts? Why a sentence forms in my mind before I speak, forcing me to weigh
that sentence before I spit it out? Why mind thinks of all the possible responses
to that sentence and force me to repress. How can my mind be so empathetic and
view from other’s perspective that there is no room for my own expression? No,
this is not an anxiety, but this is not natural, not spontaneous as it happens
all the time.

P.S. Just an honest expression, nothing intended. Any comments would be appreciated...