BirKrishna Ji.......you just wrote my life up there.......exactly same as yours, except I am still on my 2nd year........Laziness bhanam bhane, I wasn't that lazy back in Nepal, Paadai ma kamjor bhanam bhane I was decent student. Depression nai ho bhanera bhanam bhane it's not like I am sad all the time, not talking to anybody. I think it might be just a symptoms of minor depression. Sano kaam, like going online and paying bill which is due tomorrow lai paani ekchin ma garam la bhandai 1 week beetchha.....I am glad you raised this issue and I am quite sure it's common with lot of Nepalese in USA, coz I have seen lot of my friends in US they don't have much creativity or excitement about life or future. I would be glad if someone can come up with their life experience of how they deal with this kinda issue.