Ya, Raju, I want to live today, that is why I left my country for better education for me at this point ( I don't know about tomorrow), I visited Europe, I am still waiting to enjoy a lot but if I can't do anything, I can just try to make people atleast positive, at least have hope for future, at least any lightening you can see, I am not like you saying every thing is dead and we are dead, no we are always alive (ya I have a lot problems in my life and sometimes difficult to sleep) but life goes on, it will never return, lot of rajus, no quiros want Gyanendra back, but it won't happen, but I want another good person coming for better Nepal, I never regreat about Gyanendra, he is dark and always be dark.