I had same feelings few months back and I doubt I still have when I see the fan over me is spinning continuosly....

But when I thought  to hang myself on the fan, I was not confident about if the fan can bear my weight or not. If it will break after I die, it would be great. If it wouldn't, I will lose only one fan that keeps me cool all these time. So, I give up this idea.

Another visualization which keeps me commiting sucide is what happens after I die? Will he marry another gal? Definitely he will? He can not give up his desires for me. What if they make love in front of my ghost and I cannot do anything to them except witnessing their love making.

Soo, I gave up thinking abt death now.