b i p,

even if she is gone, let her know. if you cannot forget her, remember her as much as you can. from the beginning , live the same life one more time, you will be amazed that you can open ur eyes this time. I just read your othe comment. Listen, when you need professional counscelling, go for it. This is not the end but you need help this time. If you don't  feel OK within next 24 hrs and those thought keep distrubing, please seek professional help. Do some meditation. Forgive her and forgive yourself for loving her.

Peace