Pain makes humans Proactive. The fact that you are willing to reach out to people is a good example of it. Seems you might have been pathetic with the feelings that is feeding you. As every person knows you too know that time will heal the misery. But the question is how long will this "time" take. It depends if you genuinely believe in patience, positive belief, presistency of your spirit. Emotions just don't understand the logic of life. Just a 2 cent suggested here is to speak with a person who is not judging you and is actively listening your feelings and thoughts. Be reflective and learn from this life event, it can help you grow as a good person and live a content lifestyle. Be flexiable and willing to listen. However, recognize that you are being vulnerable at the sametime screen the advices positively.You might want to speak to a good counselor.