The first Christmas without you babe
was a day to forget and a night to hate.
Yes, there it was and I could see it all -
the trees, the lights, happy faces and the snowfall.
I searched around for you and longed to hear your voice
A lill' late to realise, You weren't there but with the person of your choice!
 
I sat there amidst people with my lonely heart
No babe, I wasn't desperate; it's you I missed and noone else from the start.
I reached out to look for your hands to hold
waited and waited, until my fingers went numb in the cold.
 
People giggled, laughed and danced;
I faked a quick smile, whenever they glanced.
It was obvious - I wasn't the last year's 'ME' and they asked why?
pretended I was drunk, no one believed - I can't even lie!
 
The candles burned and melted down
silence, loneliness, and pain left to surround.
The closed walls haunted me and your picture made me cry
Don't tell me to put it away 'coz u r not 'just another guy'!
 
I can't find a solace, nowhere can I go
every roads lead to you, I m stuck - that I know!
No, it's not ADHD, nor insomnia alone, and neither am I anorexic,
it was just a potion of your love that was fervidly toxic!

Stranded I m with an open wound and a scar for life,

With you, you took all that I needed to survive.

Please don't wish me a Happy New Year,
Since there's no more you, days ahead are filled with just tears.

Spare me a lill bit of your strength and some heartlessness;

Donate me my life, my youth, and my cheerfulness.
May be it's this time of the year that's making it even harder;
What a season u chose to abandon - Christmas, NewYear, anniversary, valentine's and my birthday are right around the corner.
You wouldn't care coz you've one more event added to the list of your holidays
Oh dear soul! I've been missing you more than any words can ever say!!!