thanks a heap again, guys. deception, betrayal, back stabbing have evolved into a fashion these recent years which is not good at all. people will lose or have lost faith, trust in a true relation.

i could have forgiven her but the very thought of deception drives me up the wall sometimes. that time,i wish very hard that i sould have cheated her too before she did. on top, her relatives lives near my apartment and they all give me sorry look and god how i hated that. they stopped doing that. and i know they feed her with my recent activites which is good and bad at the sametime. btw, we all go to same college. but they all say, she did the wrong thing. well that won't bring my wasted years back. and truly, i am not a buddha or gandhi either who would offer another cheek. i am a simple human being and have simple emotions. what i did was i used this betrayal as a fuel to drive myself up the academic ladder and today i feel content and happy. but i got lot to do. to show her and her family. and as i said, no matter how busy we are, it is that 'sometimes' when you just drift back in time and wander till u forcibly snap out of it.

thanks again.