Dear SunShine,

I was also in the same phase few months ago, as you are now. In that sense, I can feel your pain and I know how hard it is.

You can not forget him easily but please remember that forgetting him is the best option for you. This option may look dark but just push yourself into this option and enjoy the beauty of life. I t seems to me that it's hard to inspire and influence you at this phase because you are kind of addicted and it seems like nothing can replace your addiction. I was same like you. 

Try to come back to your life, try to look at the different dimensions of the things,love is in the air, love is all around you. So don't feel alone and empty. While you walk down the street or travel in the bus, all people around you had tragedies and break ups in life ( although nobody likes it), but why do we find our own problem as the biggest ???  isn't it exxageration? Deaths, accidents, sickness, tragedies.... do happen in life, but the blind says eyes are  vital and deaf says ears are vital. 

 Let's seek to understand others first before we want them to understand us, lets start loving and caring others instead of wanting someone to come and love us. Inspiration is all around you, all you need is different perspectives. You can find different self improvement books or you can see the psychologist to heal your heart .....BUT before going there, look at their immense effort and hardwork to find something to solve other's problems, look at the food you are eating, take a single  grain of rice and feel how many  people had to sweat before it came to you, look at the computer you are using or anything....how hard is everyone trying to make this world a better place to live. Then why are we still  quarelling with our bitter past???

If Laila's crazy boyfriend Majnu was born at this time, he should have been sent to a rehabilitation or psychologist, because he was severely addicted with Laila and he called that 'love'. I am not against love, but let's not destroy our beautiful life and convert our love into selfishness.

At last but not the least, I am also your poem's fan, I am glad that you are finding a way to convert your pain into poems. I wish and pray for your best!