I want to cut my wrists and slowly slit my throat/  No reason to live longer, I want to give up hope/ Im tired of living this in perpetual pain/ Done with attempting to make intellectual gain/ Living with a habitual shame cause my failures never leave like a residual stain/ Devoted myself to achieving this one purpose/ Fell from grace and now I have become simply worthless/ The anguish and torment I feel is hidden underneath the surface/ My pain not understood by men preaching sermons in some churches/