You've already achieved all the success right from coming to different part of the world to getting good job, well pay,  friends, family, boyfriend all you need to do now is to devot your life to make others happy. BY helping others in anyway you can.

I've read several types of weired comments or threads from you metal gal. Arent you the  one who once posted a  thread  that you  hate all Nepalese? Even this thread is posted at 3:00 in the morning wow NO SLEEP hmmm there should be something going  ..... problem might be serious if you can go to the doctor just go for it may be u need some anti depression medicine.

good luck to you