i like to kill myself go away from pain and problem ....i make to other ......... even i try change myself i cant change ............is not about me .......it's about my life .........when i was school i was bad kid always fight with boys and gals ......after i finish school i coome to USA and my new life stared make money have fun with friend .....had good job ...........i don't care who am i hurting .......ma life is all about me .. i was selfish ..............after that i change i stop goind to club or hang out with friend ...........i become nice gal ......i stop talk on phone with pal .....stop hang out ....try to be nice gal .............after that i am still not happy ...........how much i work hard to make money still not enough ............i am still not happy ..........and i change again this time i dont work much like i do before still i dont go out .........every thing i did .....is make ma life better ...........still not happy i am still same gals i used to be ............today i realized in this world i cant stay happy.......... even i have every thing that i need ......... i have good friend .......nice family .... sweet BF........still i am not happy ..............in this human world you never gonna be happy ...........that why.... i wanna kill myself run away from every one ...........so i can live happy without money ,family,friend and love..... IF I KILL MY SELF I WILL STAY HAPPPY IN OTHER WORLD that what i think ...........that why i like to kill self without hurting anyone