I can't lose you, but I know I have;

My state of 'denial' denies to surpass!

I been searching for you everywhere, in me - within me;

out in the open, on the streets, next to my driver's seat!

For you, it might just have been a sin;

but me? I lost my everything!

Being without me - you must have gotten used to;

I m stuck - it takes much more for me to!

Do not think I gave up, coz I know I never will;

If you 'REALLY' ever need me, please know I m here and forever will!

You know what I've lost and what I always wanted;

'ONE' dream I dreamt of, that's left me taunted!

From here on, I know NOT what my roads are like;

Knobby, dusty and bumpy, filled with spikes!

Nonetheless, I m destined to walk alone;

So, I shall limp amidst pebbles and stones!

I've decided to wait, but I know not what my threshold is;

coz they say-with time, the intensity is set to decrease!

I did not wish for any presents nor a Christmas tree,

all I wanted for Christmas was YOU;

Santa missed you off my list,

so, it's gonna hurt - if it ever heals too!

P.S - I still love you!!!