nepinny, sigh, Ctal and grishma - thanks for your sweetness!!! Ctal I comprehend what you said but nothing helps at this time, just nothing; and the only person that would is MISSING. We, for all those we knew, were a perfect  couple...we grew alongside each other in the past couple of years..Talk about compatibility-nothing less than perfection, he admired everything about me ( last time I saw him off at the airport, before he went out of my sight,  'katti ramri dekheki"-these words are still ringing in my ears!) Even if there were any of the hidden reasons you mentioned, I still believe he loved me throughout all these years and I did too,and from here on I will keep it alive!