ok this is going to be another weird thread (or close to being so). i was watching nepali literateur Jagadish Ghimire's interview the other day. For those of you who don't know Jagadish Ghimire, he is one of the senior journalists (used to write for some Saptahik newspaper in Nepal, if my memory serves me right) and an excellent writer.

I don't follow nepali literature (which is no good but is one of the things i have in my long 'to-do' list) but what caught my attention is that this guy gives this interview after he is diagnosed with blood cancer. He talks about how his views on life changed once he heard the news and how he prepared (or is preparing) himself to conceive and realize this eternal truth of a living being.


Most of us would not want to go through the feeling that we are going to die soon but this guy gathers enough courage and writes and publishes a book: "Antarman ko Yatra" (The journey of an Inner Soul) in which he talks about his take on life and death, among others. In the interview, he also talks about how he was inspired to write probably the last book of his life. (It would be great if it can be made available in the US and other countries via. Amazon or something).


Click here to watch his interview.

And there are few things I have been contemplating for a while now. This interview has further accentuated my contemplation -- my quest for answers to these weird unanswered questions of life (or death, I don't know):

1) Is there a life after death?

2) If Loote is dead, will Loote know that he is dead?

If the answer to question no. 2 is 'Yes', I have all the reasons to celebrate the success I have achieved and will further achieve in my life before I die.

if not, then  what's the point of this life, more so the success?  We all know how Newton contributed for the betterment of mankind. But does Newton (the one after his death-- his ash, his skeleton whatever, the one who actually contributed) realize what he did and how he is, even now, respected (or in some case revered) by the world?

3) If there is a life after death, why do they don't let us know what we were before this life and what we will be after this life?. That way, I will have some incentive to do what I want to do in this life coz then I would know, even after my death, what I meant to the society and the world.

4) But looks like I won't know (else I would have known what I was in my last life in the first place) and if that's the case, what the world and the people think about me and will think about my deeds after my death should not matter to me by an ounce, should it?  So going along that line, why don't I become a criminal ? Why be a nicey nice human?

 I say, f8*k this life, f8*k the quest for success, f8*k the quest for love. I want to kill people. I want to become infamous. Let me do the honor by killing you first--yes you! What say you?