After reading your story mero man nai bhaare bhayeko cha.....
I really don't have any words, but you never know what is going to happen in your future.
So you should enjoy every moment of your life.
Sajaan, I think you should start a new life and I hope Smriti replies to your email.
You still shouldn't be feeling guilty what happened in you past life. Life goes on, no matter what....
You always don't get what ever you want in your life. After passing all these circumstances, I am sure God has really left something special for you in your life. Just try to make it better and try to enjoy your life and make Sapana proud of u...Look for a good tomorrow...and keep posting...