Yekloyatri,

            You portrait the future scene of all Nepalese students so clearly that  even close eyes can also see it. Yes it is frustrating but is so true just like the truth of rise of sun from east.

            All of us have to burn our ass in 360 c temperature to survive here if we want to stay legally. But this is not enough, there is always, ALWAYS some issues going around us that we have to deal with exclusively. I been here in USA for lat one and half year, done with my study and still working at a lowest level job, that none of us even haven’t imagine. Just tell me how many of you thought to sell cigratees (just like ramdayal does in Nepal), or washing dishes for 14 hours, pumping gas for others, bushing people. On starting we convenience ourself beliving that future would have really good fruit for us.

We can’t save money at all. Whatever you get, pay your bills and try to save it for next semester. And believe me it would be never enough. Always you would have to use your credit card to pay your tuition fee or beg your college to arrange installment plan for you. Don’t even think to save money when you are in college, it would be a highest level of stupidity. Going classes and doing HOURS makes your life so miserable that one OFF day would be passed like one minute. 5 years (undergrad students), 2 years (master students) would just passed like blink of eyes. Struggle for whole week and end up with beer during the weekend that’s what lie would become all about.

Some of the luckiest people would have get a chance to go to Nepal, and would spend few months. Unfortunately I m not one of those lucky persons and I even can’t think when I can make it true.

After done with study, all those H1B lafads…Find a dhoti consultancy, get training for 2-3 months, make fake resume and put it on market. Some of us will get lucky and will find a job, those unfortunate ones either have to stay illegally or go to college again. SAD huh…….Again the life I described before will start.

And oh yeah, where is the social life. Most of the time I can’t meet my roommates for 2-3 days. When I am at home they would have already gone to work and when they come, I would be already at work. And I m pretty sure this happens or happened to you all too.  American people don’t give a damn to us, no matter what you say now.. it just sp f)cking true….they just don’t. I think its something called “”.. I don’t know what you called it ?. Do we give a dam to any dhotis there in Nepal? Do we hang with them? We will miss everything. From Carrying our girlfriend on the back of our bike to making wood fire and haging with your friends in front of shanker dev campus. All those momos, nagarkot picnics and gathering on main “CHOWK” at evening would become just a memory. And no occasions too..On dashain we will get “goat” meat and would try to celebrate it anyway. Except that no tihar, no holi , no maghe sankranti….

And dream, I even don’t want to talk about it..Actually I even don’t remember when was the last time I saw a nice dream? Nice dream is a very far, I (we) even actually can’t get a good sleep. Being here is not like seeing guys going to road trip on movies or doing gangbang with chicks. Being here means just compromising. Compromising with your desires, wishes and cutting the throat all foolish dreams we have seen we saw in Nepal. I have to give up the most interesting thing of my life “computer programming” just because I don’t have time to do programming anymore. Saying “get a programming job” would be very easy, but most of us know how easy it is?

Why Can’t I go back to Nepal ?

Even after having so much frustration, I have to stay here. I am assuming that many of us are having the same situation.

1)      I am not the son of a rich businessman. Whatever my father has earned so far, (our house) is in a bank. I took that loan to get in here and at least, I have to get my house out of the bank before going there.

2)      Even someday when I would be able to pay my loan, I can’t go Nepal with empty hands because I won’t have to do anything there. It would be too late to get a job, I would be old enough not to get job (30 years) and to start a small business I need some money.

3)      Paying back the loan is not easy.  I have to maintain status here and to survive here.

N_Man

“Tehi ta ho ramro kaam ani daam or good education....where???? USA!!!”

That’s what I thought before coming to usa. Let me say a bitter truth, No good money when you are a student and no good education for us. Studying here means working whole night and going to college during day time and again go back to work at night. In every semester we have to escape classes and have to write emails making excuse to the professors. It’s not like studying in Nepal, without any tension, without any problem. How do we expect to have a good education after work 40-45 hours in a week? You will spend 55-60 hours on your sleep and rest you have to go to school. There is only 168 hours in a week.

I was becoming silent user for sajha.com but today can’t stop myself to write on this thread.

Sorry if I ruined this thread. Have to throw this frustration out of my soul somewhere.

It makes me feel so bad that all of us people suffering with this and unfortunately deal with it. Even I don’t know any of you and expect to cross our path in our life, I wanted to give a hug to all of you as Nepalese love.

With love

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