it all happened unknowingly.when i get first registered in sajha(way back in 2004),i didnt know actually i have to write some dummy name in user name.i gave everything real.when i got email from sajha,i realized my real name has been my user name too.well i started using it...sometimes i got bashing for using real name saying i m attention seeker(i have still those postings in my account).i remember 1 incident....when i sought for my nepali alumni(who were already in states)from my med. school  i got funny reply of advertising myself(though some of them were suppoertive too).i was shocked n i withdrew that thread.i asked myself am i seeking attention?my conscience said nope.sometimes when ppl get nasty on you,it becomes a matter of great uneasy among the ppl u know n live.

good side i have been able to track many of my long-lost friends through sajha.many of them have

sent personal msg in my sajha a/c after reading my thread.so its like bridge to my old heritage.someimes i think

of using some dummy names n quitting the current one.tara maya lagdo rahechha of the identity u have been using for almost four yrs.so for now living with this mixed baggage.