when i go through my friend`s old diary, I noticed some guys live in America not that bad too..

Check this so called decent  life in America....

towards the end..
Jun 6, 2006 5:28 PM

 tuesday today..got one more paper tomorrow and then another one on friday and thats the end of it..ive bin alive for like 18 years and half of that time ive spent in budhanilkantha..yah i kno the big daddy there sux and so do his croonies but hell u cant live there for over nine years and not love that place...damn im gonna mis budhanilkantha and some of the good ppl there...three days. well already in a hodliday mood i guess..not bin studyin much fer tomorrow heh...i wonder wat its like out there for high skol grads..do much free time...will prolly drive me nuts..not that i need to..

 
dated today.
May 25, 2006 3:45 AM

well....in the middle of my a level finals...its a long way to the top if i wanna rock an roll ..hah yea rite...that i can do without:P each paper i can feel it sooo omniously closing in...my head is on the edge rite now...thank god im home..helps me cling on to the last bit of sanity in me..june ninth...cant wait...then ill be a high skol grad and more trouble with colleges...yesh i can just see it coming at me real bad...pessimism sure has a way wit ones thouts ..can twist it so bad ull never feel happie again..occasional headaches and voilent mood swings.. all in a days read...the cogs in my head runnin outta lubrication..heatin up my insides..dunno when they just cant take it anymore and will just stop deaad.

 
calculator to the rescue..
Apr 11, 2006 2:15 AM

 the picture says it all..exams are no more wat they used to be..heheh ..and yah u can play mario on it.

 
gibberish
Feb 26, 2006 3:10 AM

 the guitar still sings to the movement in my joints and the headache sends ill ease coursing thru my system..i am still the same person i was the day before and yah my battries are charging and the computer still messes up my nervs to the point where i mit turn into the hulk or sumthin. nothing to penetrate this thick skull of mine, reinforced with the protection of my mundane thoughts...thoughts centered always on one. days gone lifeless without recess from the intangible bars that keep me imprisoned withn the dark dungeons of my failure. my bed beckons to me but i ignore the call.. i choose to stare at the jumble of pixels before my eyes that seem to make only the vaguest of senses...haha do i know what im doing?? pushing muself into the deepest crevasse ive ever imagined? i wouldnt know. to the oblivious observer the features that show seems calm ..almost totally in control...deep in thought maybe..i wouldnt know..i dont carry a mirror with me everywhere i go..hidden from him is the malestorm of confusion..the hopelessness..the anxiety..the happiness...all adding up to the venemous cocktail that intoxicates me...so u see im not really me heheh. its really funny.

 
whats happening????
Feb 4, 2006 4:00 AM

 i look around and every where i look i see conflict and pain and crap..look at nepal?? it in one hell of a mess with the egocentric king v/s the demagogeous parties v/s the bloodthirsty moaists..HELL theyre fighting like children over a candy well ppl, nepal aint no candy for stoopeed ppl who want power.. what is with ppl anyway wanting to have control over other ppl..why?? isnt living life good enuff?? peace wudnt be so hard to obtain if ppl just rid themselves of all the angst waves thats been spreadin aroun the globe..lookit the muslims, the obstinate orthodoxes can never seem to be able to relax.. not all of em tho .. the stubborny orthodox ones..creating animosity over some ideology that may not even be true..no relegion is true , yet all of them is in the part where it says humas need to do good..so why make such a big fuss over a small cartoon?? i mean ppl have press rights and stuff rite..take a joke.... relegion dont exist.end of story. relegion does have its benifits i guess but apart frm that its been fueling the holy wars..and holy or not, war sux.

death to boredom.
Apr 19, 2005 10:19 AM

forgot to fill in yesterday..gawd.fell asleep quite early..and early is like 11.30 halfanhour b4 midnite....made me wanna sing out loud the modified version of that ironmaiden song Two Minutes to midnite..into sumthing like HALF AN HOUR..TO MIDNITE.........found this cool machhendranath ko rath on my way to drums.took some antilighted snaps.drums.then i headed to skool in attempt to murder my boredom.had to break and enter into my own room thru the window to get this book i wanted coz the room was locked. dear ol machhendranath to greet me on way back home...had to swin thru that sea of ppl with my camera to take lotsa snapshots..i likde goin underneath the rath and takin shots of nthe urchins down there attempting to collect the coins bein given for the "god" on the rath...got some nice shots y kno....too bad i cant transfer the pics to my computer coz this thing has a screwed up USB terminal that justr wont detece any thing.gotta fix that.

 
day one?? dunno.
Apr 17, 2005 11:23 PM

 so a journal eh?? watever.....days are borin when not in skol rite... an lifes as excitin as peeled potatoes......stoopeed computer cant hook up wit my camera so no fotos ..that means no fresh fotos for this journal entry i guess.....so will hafta do with an ol one.....u kno its kinda monotonous doin the same stuff everyday......dream bout nepti...mumtemper...wake up .. mumtemper.... drumclasses.home.timepass.tution.hang out.home.. mumtemper....woah..enuffalready......conclusion cant wait fer the hols to END.....umm seems fun typin to noone in particular so think ill do this hehehe..oh ya sumthing interestin..i met this sadhu in basantapur and i took his foto ..actually he was after me thinkin i was japanese or sumthing ykno..an i took this guys foto ani i had it printed juss as he had asked..i try an find him the same day but i cant...damn..that was the day b4 yesterday...well finally found him where i didn expect to..indra chowk..today in the mornin on my way to drums.took sum more fotos...juss b4 drum classes..looked happy so see his face on paper..made it to drums half an hour early.nepti hadnt come to guitar classes :(.miss her...home..chemestry tution..yuck...baraf to cool me on the way...tution teacher had to wake me up durin classes hehe.damn.kno wat ill bust my stupid computer...tara if i bust it i wont have a computer to wait online for nepti..soo..the computer stays.