A trivial thing is getting my nerves for the last few days. After a couple of weeks my ex-gf is turning 21 (how weired :-( i still remember). .. just wondering if its a good idea to wish her coz there r many other things , many other things? or maybe nothing

Well, its been more than a half year that we broke up..(phew! my heart also got broken up for few days)..perhpas that was Pyar ke side effects LOL..we did not have any argument, mistrust, blaming, cheating  or something like that but just we broke up nevertheless I dont hesitate to admit that it occured because of me. Though I put sincere effort to keep the relationship in eleventh hour,  things did not work. Now I believe, everything happens for good...Im v happy, at least happier than with her..."Khutta bhaunjel Juttako kehi kami nahudo rahechha".. ani samay anusar naya naya brand JUTTA aaudo rahechha LOL

Well, after break up, I decided not to keep in touch  (as a friend) with her COMPLETELY though she has always wanted and still wants. ( I dont know how on earth these European  ppl wanna  be JUST friends after all those things) She has sent many SMSs after that (Only as a friend hai) but I did not answer coz my intitution says it was not WISE and for sure, there was nothing left to reply "Jo hua so hua....."

Damn, we encountred many times on the streets coz the place I live is pretty small but we never  greeted each other. I really felt uneasy and uncomfortable to see her, and I try my best to avoid her tara nahunebelama k k hunchha kahilekahi ta din ma 3-4 patak Jamkabhet hunchha....Fucck

Do I really have to wish on her B'Day? Why? Im so confused...my heart says "Yes....yes..yes" and my mind counterattacks with a big "NO".....and Im in dilemma Yes No, No Yes, Yes No, Yes No....its such a small thing just wishing a birthday but how could I wish with whom I have never communicated for the last 8 months and never replied her messages. And I dont wanna give her imprssion that "Im missing her and thinking abt her" (this is being a MAN...that hurts sometimes..remember last word only SOMETIES).. Just 3 days ago we encoutered again on the street and after 3 hours my mobile beeped up with usual message "Hi why did u ignore me? U walked as if I did not exist" I just wrote back "I never ignore anyone perhpas I was in hurry, I did not notice U" but the fact was I clearly avoided her and we both knew it well.

I know she will be pleasantly surpriesed if I wish her on BDay but I dont know what kind of message will it pass besides bday greetings.. and what will she think if I dont talk to her even after wishing her (im 100% sure we will collide soon on the streets). Then, she is a v emotional girl and now I remember "Birthday wish" means a lot to her. Exactly a year ago she complained " I think there r only 3 people who care me You, my mom and Jenni" then she was very very excited to have those 3 wishes. She complanied a lot about her sister, brother, friends and even her dad who did not even remember her birthday...Then she whispered  "I was certain that u careless would not remember this day  but u proved me wrong" her eyes were smiling like never before and that was  magic of just  four words "Happy Birthday my dear"

This time, Im still puzzled if its right time to wish though there will be only first two words. One thing is certain  these two words can bring same smile to her eyes

What should I do? waiting for suggestions from experts sajha friends