Growing up in kathmandu....Dashain was the most exciting time of my life, it meant a long one month holiday from school, flying kites, Tika, Money...Dachhina...Good food, new outfit and shoes. meeting all the relatives in Mama Ghar....TONS OF DACCHINA ....gambling....than came Tihar.....oh another good time, Fire crackers......Deushi and bhailo, tons of festive moods, Lighting candles and Diyo , Gathering with friends to play deushi ........aaey .bhana mera bhai ho ,.....Dheushire.......and then the all Pujas and Bhai Tika..........then followed the reality of school....final exams and then three months Chutti.......................as I grew older the fun was the same but more mature.............and when Deusi Bhailo times came......we rented busses we were playing songs with a full band ...drums, amps, elec. guitars, keyboards, speakers.....KAHA TIMRO MAYALU LAI ...............NASHSA BHITRA NASHA SARI........BIDESH JANE MAYALU TIMILAI.....etc etc...........now being a lot older  in my late 20s  and  not being home to celebrate Dashain for more than 10 yrs............I feel a bit wierd and lost of that spirit....that festive spirit...........here in the US  Dashain is celebrated .......but I dont feel like it.......I go to my relatives house but .......feels like any other day....put tika ..eat dinner....and then go home .......and next day Back to work............NO one month holiday.....like in nepal...or even 15 days.......NO Matter how festive it looks when I go to parties.....Im not feeling Dashain.................Nor Festive......this is how I feel...............How do you all feel is the feeling mutual or am I missing something.................?????????