I Never bother to go through this kind of long story but this time i read it more than 3 times. I am impressed your writing but i don't know why i m feeling that it's not just a writing. This is the reality you r facing every day, every moment.One thing that i know that writing never speak out the feelings. May be i am wrong but i felt that u couldn't able to limit this thing with yourself and that's why u r throwing it on sajha. let me know i m true.