Keta keti ho, I read somewhere that people who talk about suicide often try it...do something about your depression, people who dont have hobbies often get depressed so start doing something new, try to learn a new skill or do something that you like. Stop living in your past, if you have made mistakes in life...everybody does it, dont care about people who judge you, take pleasure in simple things in life..enjoy the nature..if you are doing drugs even marijuana, quit right now, drugs are often depressing. Stop thinking about killing yourself its a crime.