hey lonely, hang in there. don't lose urself for that guy. every word you wrote, i feel like they're my own words. i'm going thru similar situation and i'd say it's better to leave him now. i believe that all relationships should end up in happiness. if thats not happening then don't bother putting so much effort into it. get out from this mess now. the more u wait..the more harder it'll be. i just broke up with him and am trying to move on. it's not easy i know but i know you can do it. hope you'd find ur happiness again. take care